{"id":850,"date":"2016-08-29T22:15:57","date_gmt":"2016-08-29T22:15:57","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/abysmalwitch.com\/?p=850"},"modified":"2016-08-29T22:15:57","modified_gmt":"2016-08-29T22:15:57","slug":"i-am-a-delicate-flower","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/abysmalwitch.com\/index.php\/2016\/08\/29\/i-am-a-delicate-flower\/","title":{"rendered":"I am a delicate flower"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"http:\/\/abysmalwitch.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/08\/RIMG5639.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" class=\"aligncenter size-large wp-image-851\" src=\"http:\/\/abysmalwitch.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/08\/RIMG5639-1024x768.jpg\" alt=\"Delicate Flower\" width=\"660\" height=\"495\" srcset=\"http:\/\/abysmalwitch.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/08\/RIMG5639-1024x768.jpg 1024w, http:\/\/abysmalwitch.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/08\/RIMG5639-300x225.jpg 300w, http:\/\/abysmalwitch.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/08\/RIMG5639-768x576.jpg 768w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 660px) 100vw, 660px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>I am raw.<br \/>\nMy edges bruise at the faintest touch<br \/>\nLike a peach balanced at the edge of over ripe<br \/>\nEach difficulty<br \/>\nEach push back<br \/>\nEach slight murmur of error<br \/>\nAnd I am burnt with shame<br \/>\nEnfolded in fear<br \/>\nLost in doubt<br \/>\nWith just a soup\u00e7on of rage underlying it all<\/p>\n<p>I seek bold<br \/>\nFearless<br \/>\nUNSTOPPABLE (I&#8217;m looking at you t-rex)<\/p>\n<p>These states run from me<br \/>\nFaster than I can chase<br \/>\nOr even see<br \/>\nAnd I am touched<br \/>\nBy disquiet, disturbance, distrust<br \/>\nFailure looms not (not truly, not in this moment)<br \/>\nYet is is my sword of Damocles<br \/>\nI am cursed by its weight<br \/>\n&#8220;I&#8217;m not touching you&#8221;<br \/>\nIt says like an eight year old in the throes of being eight<br \/>\nAnd as unignorable<br \/>\nI can think of nothing else<br \/>\nI consider tossing away my Work<br \/>\nEasier to do that than live with fear<br \/>\nEasier to do nothing than be bound<br \/>\nBy anxiety never-ending<\/p>\n<p>I am a delicate flower<br \/>\nWithout the luxury of living safe<\/p>\n<p>I am a delicate flower and I am afraid.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I am raw. My edges bruise at the faintest touch Like a peach balanced at the edge of over ripe Each difficulty Each push back Each slight murmur of error And I am burnt with shame Enfolded in fear Lost in doubt With just a soup\u00e7on of rage underlying it all I seek bold Fearless &hellip; <a href=\"http:\/\/abysmalwitch.com\/index.php\/2016\/08\/29\/i-am-a-delicate-flower\/\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading <span class=\"screen-reader-text\">I am a delicate flower<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_links_to":"","_links_to_target":""},"categories":[2,12],"tags":[344,347,95,348],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/abysmalwitch.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/850"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/abysmalwitch.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/abysmalwitch.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/abysmalwitch.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/abysmalwitch.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=850"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/abysmalwitch.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/850\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":852,"href":"http:\/\/abysmalwitch.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/850\/revisions\/852"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/abysmalwitch.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=850"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/abysmalwitch.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=850"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/abysmalwitch.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=850"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}